Oh Hello, November

I can't believe its already November 20th, and will be the 21st in less than an hour. It's almost done!
Which is very good, its been a bad month acedemically.
Every test, I do bad on. Thought I'd get a 90 or at least an 80 (but I'd be disappointed with that) on my Anthropology test. I ended up getting a 65.
a 65!

I reviewed my test and it was things like "a,b, not C" or "all of the above" "none of the above" which i feel are tricks. And one legit dumb choice on my half.
Totally lame.

Basically after that I just hate doing anything because I am doing so bad in everything.
I can't wait until Tuesday to go home!!
I have anthropology Wednesday morning, we are watching a movie. She said "this doesn't mean don't come to class" ... ok I'm not gonna sit in traffic for an 55 hour class/movie. So I am leaving Tuesday evening.

I cant wait to see my Norman. My newborn cousin's baptism is tomorrow, and him and my whollle family are going to be there. I'm pumped. It's being held 20 minutes away from here, so its perfect.

Lame update because nothing at alllll has happeneeedddd.


Except.

Four Lokos have been discovered.
but now
Four Lokos have been banned.

:)

i am the coolest person ever.

Long story short.

SUBTLY FOR DIANA, do not fb refernece this or IM about this until further notice, but u can reply here. lmao. (but ur onur way home tomorrow/now/sometime soon so i think it'd be safe)

I must be a gorgeous girl.
or easy.

Boy from high school, who I've been in LOVE with since 9th grade...
Is coming to see me tomorrow, or in like. 4 hours.

he's afraid im not serious in wanting to see him.
and he goes "i thought u have been cute forev..im just kinda n asshole"
bc. well. he was a senior when i was a freshman, and he started dating this girl.. we used to talk all the time [online] and somewhat in person, we were in plays together. and well i knewww of him since. elementary school.
and then he started dating her, and we stopped talking so much. and then we started again that summer, and then he left for college. and we talked minorly, but then stopped for like, 4 years. and started again last year.
and he was like "me n u are 6 years n building but we're both gutless" lol he allllways chickens out, i just thought he was being a jerk. which he may very well have been but whatever.
I owe this to 15 year old me, no matter what.

The phrase that comes to mind, is "lord of the dicks" is me. its liek a bad porn name. but i still feel thats me. hahaha. i need to write a book.

Your bed or mine.

Mine.

I wish it was yours but I felt like a hogger.

In addition....

In addition to quidditch practice tomorrow.
It's going to be a busy day, but I am so ready to tackle it!

9:35-10:30 - anthropology class
10:30 bio204 compentency exam (must leave antrhopology 5 minutes early)
1:00 quidditch practice
3:30 - lecture - extra credit
OR
3:50 economics - I think I may skip the extra credit lecture because I am fiiinally getting economics and I don't wanna get behind.. and I can do other extra credit assignments. I didnt realized they were at the same time.
5:00 - health and safety check

7:00 fantasy hockey draft
9:00 fantasy basketball draft.



ALSO.
I am probably the only person who watches "Melissa & Joey" on abc family...
i love it!

LMAO that i am thinkign these online drafts make my day busy. lol

Involvement!

Tomorrow is my first day of QUIDDITCH practice!!!
:)
hope it goes well.

Bobble Heads.

I've made up my mind.

I.
Am.
Joining.
The.
QUIDDITCH.
TEAM.

Wasting Water!!

I really hate stupid people.
Sure our faucet shouldn't leak.
but maybe it really doesn't and it only DOES because these girls are dumb and can't turn a knob.
I manage to turn off the faucet every time I go in the bathroom and see it's left on.
Do you know how I avoid leaeving the faucet running, besides just TURNING it off...
I don't even use it.
There are 4 sinks and there is never a need for me to that one.


And yes, that is a sign I made and hung up on the mirror.

Drunk me...

had some really good ideas for a blog post.
But then I sobered up.

Damn it. (last night, not right now)

"It's better to say too much.."

I maybe say the wrong things at the wrong time.
Or I say too much when I should have stopped long ago.

I can't help it. I can be mad at myself for it. or I can just say whatever.

I don't really take all that I say even seriously. And you may be the fool to do so. I will quickly tell you the truth to anything about me, if you cared to ask. I don't really keep secrets or hide things about my self. I snort when I laugh. I get drunk and flash little kids. I don't really have many/at all standards for guys. I knock into things quite often and fall down. And I will fall for every thing you say.

music is time.

This album makes me feel relaxed. and sad. and missing time for the past.

I thought everything was great. And would only get better. Or things would stay the same.
But you can't get memories back and things never stay the same.

I really wish I could relive those days. Everything.
Even the times I hated my life, and wanted to sleep away the rest of my life.
I'd go through all that heartache for just one day in this time.


At least I have the memories...
but it's just so depressing to never get to feel that way again.

Can't sleep.

I hate thiiss...
but sort of am like... if I'm not tired, why am I forcing myself to go to sleep.

Except then, I realize well I will be tired in the morning, when I get up at 8.

And then I realized, that I will be tired regardless of when I go to sleep.

But when will I even be tired???


This is unpleasant!
and my battery is low, which means I will have to get up soon and plug it in.
And is it worth it?
Because I should go to sleep.

Im trying to fool myself into sleep, by covering my head in blankets.
I love blankets.

Funny Fruit.

So the one that you thought was furthest from the apple, like the grapes (as mentioned before) is the one trying to win your heart. They say hold on and then actually text you back, they im you everytime they sign on. They are around when they say they will be.. The one who you say good night too, and then you add one more thing, and then they ask you about your day and you talk for an hour.
but the one you wanted to be an apple, the peach, is the one who doesn't remember to call you. and the one who stops a conversation, but not replying.

I really want the peach.



(LMAO this fruit analogy is hilarious and is why I am continuing with it.)

And the key is.....

confidence.
I guess.

When you are confident and you aren't looking for something, there it is right in front of you... or well if you are looking for an apple, maybe you don't get an apple, but you get like... a peach. Its similar, and will do. And it makes you happy.

And you giggle because you have been looking for any sort of fruit and all you got were veggies, and rotten veggies none the less.
But now you have Peaches, Mangos, and maybe even some grapes.
And you don't know what to do with all this fruit!

I guess you can leave them on the counter, or put them in the fridge and let them linger and perhaps they will by chance, turn into the apple you wanted after all.

In the meantime, you are proud to have such a variety.

horoscope

My horoscope for today:
AQUARIUS (Jan. 20-Feb. 18): William Henry Dines invented many instruments for accurate weather predictions. You are on to something big and wonder if the winds are on your side. Don’t dismiss your heightened intuition. Your ally is helping you secure what you most want

:)

The rain.

It sounds sooo perfect from indoors.
I would love to go out and jump in it,
but to arrive at class in my soaking hoodie is not favorable.

Rain boots on hand.
I'm gonna sit this one out and listen to the thunder.
So not acedemic.

What others fail to notice.

If you care, you take the time.
If you're gonna wing it, you don't really want it.

I think this works in many situations.
How I meant it was that I've gone on "dates" where we would be like
"should we see movie?" "ok"

But, this time it was "I wanted to show you a nature preserve, it's like my favorite spot ever." And he knew that I would like this because he took an interest in who I am. It wasn't a generic date. "Since you're an environmental major, I figured you liked outdoorsy stuff." And boy was he right. I probably wouldn't have thought to do those types of things but it was the most fun I probably ever had.
I think next weekend, if we hang out again, I'm going to take him to the place in Southampton where you can feed birds out of your hand. He likes similar things, I believe.

But after typing the first part, I realize this can be directed to a lot of things. In which I was having an inner fight with myself. But I just have to remember that.

As per Diana.

My philosophy,
If you are talking to a person of the opposite sex, or even same sex in some cases, and you feel awkward at any point during it...
then they are flirting with you.


Happened to me twice already.
Thanks "thickness".

And today you accidently called me baby...

Stony Brook Lesson #1, going back to your dorm between classes is kind of impossible.
Will not attempt tomorrow.
Or if I do, know the right way to go, and not get lost.

Realization.

Key to being faithful:
Find someone you neve want to stray from.

Benefit: you're happy and they won't get hurt.

Drawback: if they don't want you, it sucks because you still don't want anyone else.

Yummyness!

I really only eat crunchy tacos because I love the challenge.

So in addition to finding a delicious (I'm assuming) zucchini, I made from scratch some yummy guacamole.

Ingredients:
1 large avacado
a couple, fresh from my garden, tomatos!
about 1/3 a cup of chopped onions
a squirt of lime juice
and some salt & pepper
--should have put in some minced garlic, or at least garlic powder but I forgot and it was soooo good!

We used it in tacos.
Where I had beans, guacamole, salsa, & lettuce - pretty simple but filled with lots of flavor!


PS: I love getting Yankees trivia right!

Woah, WOAH, What's that?

Its a ZUCCHINI!!!
Finally! I see one more in the making, but I thought there was none, so I was ecstatic when I saw this BIG guy!

"I'm not that inno-cent"-Britney

Apparently I give off the impression that I am a nice wholesome girl.
lol.

Today at work, I had mentioned how even MORE clumsy I am when I drink and I always wake up with tons of bruises.
Convo goes:
Boy I work with: "You drink?"
Me: Yea..?
Boy: REally? I didn't think you did that kind of stuff.
Me: ..really?? lol. I AM 21...
Boy: I just never would have thought it..

lol funny. I guess its a good thing that I dont come off as a drunkard, or anything else. And this isn't the first time that I have been misconceived.. haha

Leaves a bit to the imagination, I suppose.

Love

Sometimes love is driving in the car with your best friends singing Taylor Swift and Beyonce.
<3

Twitter: Alicia Silverstone

I just checked out Alicia Silverstone's blog linked from her twitter.
If you don't already know, she is vegan and an activist with Peta. Despite some radical things that Peta does, the general notion is that they love animals.
She posted a video and a news article about abuse in a dairy farm. I didn't watch the video, except when I went to sign the petition, to shut down the dairy farm (long story short, 2 people were in a video of animal abuse against the cows at the farm. One man was charged with 12 counts of animal cruelty, while the other did not -- and was actually the owner of the dairy farm. He is not in jail and still manager of the farm, which is unfair and cruel.) Anyway, just the still frame of the video was there on the petition site, and it was a cow held between this guys legs with a fist on its head. Not graphic just that.
But I feel like I am going to cry. Its just so cruel and terrible that people do this, to ANY living thing, animals and humans alike.

I met several people who went vegetarian/vegan or attempted, or at least thought about it who tell me they have watched several of the Peta videos - such as beef cows, chickens, and such like that being slaughtered. I have never once watched any of those videos. I didn't have to. I can only imagine and it hurts.
Some nights, its really weird, but I can not even sleep just thinking about all the animals out there that get abused, even outside the food industry.

Humans are really terrible creatures. We think we own everything because we are overpopulated on this earth. It's really stupid. Sadly, I think the human race should really die out and bring peace and balance back to the earth.

A pretty legendary quote.

She must have been a career drunk,
because she looked like a mess.

Ah, conversations in red pick up trucks with corn, tomatos, and squash in the back.

More of my Garden!

My beautiful cherry tomato. My mom says this picture makes the tomato look big... but I think normal people would be able to tell its tiny.
It just looked so beautiful I had to take a picture!

My beautiful Charlie posing with my abundance tomatos!

One door closes as another opens.

After a night of not sleeping due to stress about the fall semester, and lack of classes, due to them being cancelled because of low enrollment.
I realized if I can't add one more class to make my credits 18, instead of 15, with classes I need for a major... then I will try to work toward a minor in Anthropology.
There is an into to Cultural Anthropology class, that is open, but at the same time as a science class I'm taking, which stinks because it is very much my first choice.
However, they have an archeology class open on tues/thurs mornings, which is sorta early (9:50) (and I have class at 9:35 M,W,F already) but I think I should be able to manage.

So, needless to say, I am excited either way (kinda want the Anthropology class actually over Conservation Genetics, but if the other is offered I gotta take it...)


Side note: My dog has been choking/coughing all lost night. He better not do it again, or I will be angry. -- and worried that it could be something bad. I was thinking kennel cough, but he hasn't been to a kennel or groomer... Only Petco yesterday afternoon, and the coughing started slightly prior. Or my mom goes, "My dog started doing this and it turned out she had a tumor on her espophagus," Well thanks mom.

Golden Girls.

Really, thats all that needs to be said.

Bodily Functions

I'm sorry, but my biggest pet peeve (besides the pgrase pet peeve) is people sneezing.
I absolutely hate it.
I think its the most annoying thing in the world.

Once I was trying to ask my mom how I looked in this dress I was going out in and all she did was sneeze at me. No words came out, just sneezes. So I stormed off because I thought she just didn't want to answer my questions.

Today she was in walmart, and was coughing while I was looking at notebooks. Then, she stopped coughing, and went to sneezing. I was so aggrivated.

So long story short - I sound like a bitch for hating peoples natural functions, but seriously there is nothing more annoying than that.

Superhero vs. Average

So you know how Clark Kent wore the glasses to hide his identity, yet we all knew he was obviously Superman?

I use my glasses the same way, I hope the response is the opposite.

First of the Garden!

Summer 2008, I stumbled upon a lonely plant lost on my college campus. I took it under my wing and brought it home. It grew, and grew, I was convinced it was a tree, lost as to what else it could be. I had never ventured into gardening, other than taking plants that I bought at the store, and planting them in the ground, but that had a name tag on it.
Anyway, I decided to name it Edward because I figured it was a tree, and would live forever, much like Edward Cullen. Anyway, I realized it then had a vegetable smell to it, and we concluded that it was actually a tomato plant. I didn't really know much to growing a tomato plant, but I transplanted it into a large pot on my porch. My mom urged me to bring it when it would rain, or storm. It finally stopped growing taller, but still now flowers. Until one day, in September, it bloomed a flower into a tomato. One lone tomato from my Edward tomato plant. It was delicious, however.
A couple months later, in the cold of winter, my mom found "Tomato Seed" packets in the dollar store. She figured that in the spring, I can start another tomato plant, or several. So I did. I bought a long window box and planted 8 tomatoes in them. Once they got to a bigger size, I transplanted them outside in the ground, with manure - Gross. But they really got a boost from it and I was probably one of the few people who had tomatos that year.
Incase you had failed to know, summer 2009 was the summer of the tomato blight. It traveled through the air and was a fungus that attacked tomato plants. The farm I worked at fell victim to this blight as well and lost mostly all of their tomato crop. But not me, I had heaping quarts of tomatos each week. I couldn't eat them as fast as they were growing. Also by the way I ended up adding about 4 more plants to my garden because I had grew some extra for my aunt and kept some of the ones she didn't want.

This year, I started the seeds again, but was away at college, trusting that my mom would be able to care for them. However, they all died at just the seedling stage.
Broken hearted, I resulted to getting some lone plants left at my job. They were tomatos, but didn't have a tag in them so I was excited to take a risk on what kind they were, such as cherry tomatos (like the ones I was trying to grow), big boy's (like a normal tomato - but there are about a dozen different types of 'regular looking tomatos'), sun golds (yellow, non acid tomatos), or plum tomatos.
I planted them in my garden, and then used the dirt from the deceased tomatos, to plant an ivy plant for my nephew - that I took off my ivy plant and rerooted it, so he could have one too (Mine is named Peetey, and his we named Patrick). Although, weeks later I saw a little sprout, and then another, and another. Days passed and these sprouts grew. They were in fact, tomato seedlings! I checked the other plant that I had used the left over dirt in, and as it would appear, there were seedling sprouts in there too! So now, in addition to the 6 in my garden I now have at least 8 in pots on my deck.
6 of the 9 already have tomatos growing, which my nephew decided he'd pick one day, and try to eat, even though they were still green! The other 3 are very small, and may, if they last that long, get tomatos in mid september. I should replant the ones in the pot because they ended up taking over Patrick's area, in which he is now dead, and are all in one 6inch pot, which is not ideal for tomatos. One tomato plant should be in at least a 10 inch pot - however mine are doing great! (as pictured!) I did already pick 1 another day, but me and Norman ate it. There are a couple orange ones, that aren't quuiite ready to be picked. Probably tomorrow!

In addition to my tomato plants, I started zucchini this year. However, I dont see even the start of a zucchini. I have flowers already, but no zucchini. So if all else fails, I will have at least zucchini blossoms that I can fry - which I hear are pretty good, but not quite what I wanted.

Young Adult books = Inspiration

Finished reading Princess Diaries book 3/10 and I was smiling at the end. Because unlike the movie, she is completely nieve about Michael loving her until he finally tells her and they kiss! Well this is after she hides away in the bathroom thinking that he's making fun of her.
And also, that she is 14, and he is 17-18 years old. Ignoring the pedafile-ness of this, as would be my thought if this were real. Well okay at 14 and a freshman in high school I was completely in love with a Senior and would of course thought it was normal for us to date -WHICH never happened but I heard from my friend that the other day she saw this crush of mine on the train, and I still would instantly marry him. Or at least date him, or well no, at LEAST have a conversation with.
Anyway, but when I was a senior and a boy was dating a freshman, I felt it was gross.
But whatever, Meg Cabot, I support this.
As well as I support a girl falling in love with a ghost (which she also wrote about.) He was a hot Gold Rush ghost named Jesse, though I think his real name was like Jose or something spanish at least. Probably not Jose - I should look it up... Okay no it's Hector De Silva.

I also just forgot that I was in the process of making soup, so now I have just noodles and a little bit of flavored water (with a vegetable bouillon). I am actually banned from making soup, preferrably tomato soup. Whenever I make tomato soup, I always make it boil over, by mistake. This results in a huge mess that, honestly, I never clean up. It just gets everywhere! A college-aged girl does not have that much experience to clean up that size mess. I result now to making tomato soup in the microwave to limit spillage, however when there aren't any clean big enough microwavable bowls, I ask my mom to make it for me.
Sure this is childish, "Mom make me some soup" but really she doesn't mind because she knows if she doesn't she will have to clean up a larger mess.

Facing the enemy.

Today I had my sisters boyfriend ask me why I became a vegetarian.

I told him it was because I don't believe in taking a life of another living being.

He asked: Do you ever miss meat?
I replied: It has almost been 10 years and I don't at all miss meat. I may miss cheese pizza after going vegan (2 yrs ago) but then I realize that I dont acutally need it.

He then proceeded: I don't think that seafood should be in that category.

I then proceeded to tell him about the blue fin tuna. That it is almost extinct and that the Us is only allowd a certain number, but that fishermen are tempted to sell it to japan, as it is the prime ingredient in Sushi, for 3x the amount, even though it is illegal to trade with Japan blue fish tuna. While out for fishing, blue fin, or other fish alike, they end up catching by catch of sea turtles and dolphin which are already endangered, and while they are not responsible for this by catch (such as they cant be HELD responsible) the animals are still dead and thus the species is stressed more to reproduce, in order to sustain their species. However if this species is extinct, or close to, their predators must find an alternative source of food which puts stress on the other species that already eats that prey.
With the extinction of any species puts stresss on its surrounding species, those who prey on that species and those who get preyed ON, by that species.

He told me that he has never heard of that, and that what I had to say was really eye opening. It was nice to know that he listened, whether or not that he has taken anything away from it.

I then proceeded to tell him how the Alaskan Salmon was a better alternative, however any farmed fish, such as this or any other, is not a better alternative because it was filled with pesticides from the people controlling the aquaculture to what the salmon/fish was used to. I told him, "If you don't care about eating pesticides or chemicals, then it is a safe option because it is sustainable."

Ah, Carrie Underwood's wisdom.

"Life is short, love is sweet. Ain't no time like this time baby."

She did it.

Diana convinced me to start a blog. I mean, I had a blog but then it went from "blogging" to it just being a pathetic journal about boys.
And while I know she would love it, I am ashamed as to what it has come to.
After reading her blog, I want to write stuff profound and thoughtful, rather than to just "I totally love ______" and such.


As with this, I realize, I never finish what I start. Such as a project or a boring book, even though I want to finish it.
Or even as I read through a troubleshooting email for my new computer that is acting up. After an hour running a diagnostic test, I consult the email again, to tell of my results, except I then realize that I, in fact, did the wrong diagnostic and this one should only take 2 minutes...
So off I go into the world of computers again, ugh!