Wednesday, June 29, 2011

July ALREADY?

This weekend I'm going away with Peter and his family to Pennsylvania :)
It may thunder which suuuucks because we are going to go tubing off the boat and swimming and so on. So i hope it doesn't!

I went out tanning today to hopefully look decent in my bathing suit. I've noticed chubby girls look so good in bikinis if they are tan. So I'm hoping my legs will look skinnier. lol

I'm trying to be on a diet too but it's not working out. Also because I'm not working out... lol.

And then next week is my last week of classes :)
except meaning that I wont see peter every week.. but its only 7 more weeks at that point. so its manageable :)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Fire or sleep?

We (my family) woke up last night at probably about 3 to some beeping. It subsided and we went to sleep. One hour later, it beeped again, scaring the living daylight out of me and forced me to stand up and say in an almost crying voice "WHAT IS THAT NOISE?!" my mom annoyed at the noise and me goes, "It's the carbon monoxide detector. Unplug it."
Without thought, I did. I did notice it said 0 on it, but it likes to beep randomly sometimes or when we lose power.

Then while we disabled that, it beeped again. This time we realized it was the smoke detector - clearly not detecting any smoke or fire.
We fiddled around with the detector for a bit and then gave up thinking, maybe we fixed it.

Norman woke up at this point so I layed in with him, now its about 4am, until he went to sleep. I get back in my bed/my moms bed (bc I don't actually have a room here anymore) and fall back to sleep.
About a half hour later. It beeps again.
An hour later, again.
an hour later, again.
Finally I got up, and found the reset button and pressed it.
It stopped beeping, I went back to sleep, and woke up an hour later for work.

My mom said it beeped before they went out earlier today.
But I hadn't heard it since I got home at 3:30.
That was, until 50 minutes ago.
When it beeped again!

My mom bought new batteries today but we couldn't figure out how to do it.
But now I replaced all of them and am hoping that at 9:55 (5 to the hour seems to be the time they chime) it does NOT beep again or I will very happily smash every single one.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I hate how people make me feel, scratch that... how I let people make me feel like my feelings/thoughts are petty & insignificant.
Like I'm a child whose words have no value.

I don't at all care what you think!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Cry cry cry babyyyy

Seriously. If I was having sex, I'd think I was pregnant.

I'm generally in such a shitty mood. And Peter said he thinks he's falling in love with me... which was kinda confusing, even though it was meant to be cute, considering we've been saying it every now and then via text but we're still too shy and awkward to say it in person.
Then said, its getting better, increasingly more. which i guess is sweet too. i mean. i guess its the same for me because I hate leaving him everytime we see each other. He came to visit me sunday evening at home - via the ferry. and I dropped him off on tuesday and wanted to cry.
And today I visited him on my way back home from school. Didn't want to cry when I left, but it sucked. I wish I coulda stayed forever -- except I'm going back down on tuesda and staying there tues and wednesday night. so that'll be nice.

My main idea that came to my head that inspired a blog post was, considering this all started with me saying "I want you"

That...

I'd rather have a boy who is falling more and more in love with me, than one who only wants sex. Obviously. But rather have the love, then the physical part of our relationship in general - even though I am totally the guy in the relationship about all the physical stuff.

I love his family. I met his aunt today. And I feel really comfy there, even though I've only been there one time before. I never felt at home at my ex's house.

We accidently walked down the diaper aisle today, and he goes, "no diapers for a while, a long while, a long time." lol. which made me laugh. PUHLEASE. i dont think i want kids till i'm at least 30... but since thats 8 smal years away.... maybe 35. lol